Reflections on Pregnancy



18 week ultra sound. It's a BOY!!!



Gosh Im having such a hard time beliving that it is October 23rd and in 22 days my baby boy will be 1. What in the world?! I remember this time last year how anxious I was about him making his big debut. I was counting down the days to his due date which was November 13th.



40 Weeks Preg

Going to dr appt's every other week and every time hearing the dr say before the end of the month he will be here no doubt in my mind. So I counted down the days to the end of the month waiting, waiting, and waiting and still nothing...no baby and my last apt in October which was October 28th if I remember correctly I was told I had not dialted yet. I was so dissapointed I was hoping for my prescious baby boy to be here early. But October quickly passed and November came the month I had so desperatly been waiting for since March 14th (the day I found out I was pregnant). 

With the end of October begining of November so many other miracles were born a girl I worked with had her baby on halloween, my sisters friend had her baby a few days before, my ex best friends sister had her's on the 3rd, and my friend who was due after me had hers on the 8th. When I heard that I was just aggravated...I remember yelling at my belly telling Kason "to come out I am soooo ready to hold you!" Well he didnt listen. My next apt was November 9th and I was only dialted to 2cm I was beyond annoyed at that point my mom and sister were going to be visiting in a week and I didnt want to be in the hospital during the 4 days they were with me. We had scheduled for an induction the next Wednesday just in case he didnt come out by then. But I refused to wait that long...the nurse at teh dr's office once mentioned to me getting my membranes scrapped. So I called on that Wednesday and begged to get an apt to get this done.

Our First moments together.

They gave me one on Friday...his due date. So Friday morning I went and had my membranes scrapped and OH MY GOSH that was the most painful thing I had ever experienced...next to the whole child birth thing. lol But it was completely worth it, after some walking around that day with my friend Josie and a nice warm candle lit bubble bath contractions started coming in at 5 minutes a part. I was so thrilled. Josie took me to the hospital where they hooked me and saw I had the contractions but I was not dialating anymore and after an hour of them watching me they were about to send a very sad soon to be mommy home....but as I started to sit up I felt something gross gushing in between my legs and alas it was my water...it BROKE!!!! I was NOT going home...I was officially in labor. Soon my baby would be with me. So 13 hours later at exactly 8:15am November 14th my baby boy was born. My heart, my soul, the one person that keeps me going every single day. I dont even know how to describe how I felt the moment he was first placed in my arms. I NEVER in a million years thought it was possible to love one single person so much. I didnt know I could fall in love so quickly either. But I did...in only a matter of seconds I was in love my baby boy Kason Alexander. It's an experience that can never trully be explained and I think it's fair to say that you can only really understand once you have gone through it.  Pregnancy is just so magical and wonderful and something I cant wait to experience again. Even though I miss the belly at times and the little kicks he would give me I love having him in my arms or terroizing my house so much more. He trully is the best thing to happen in my life and I wouldnt change a thing.

My Miracle baby Kason Alexander

21 More Days...

Until Auntski Chrissy gets here!!! Im so excited to see my big sister. Sadly her time here had to be cut short by almost a week because she made the Mobile Strike Force at work. Dont ask me what it is cause I dont really know, what I do know is that she has been trying to get on it for about a year. So I am happy for her. :) I have no idea what exactly we are going to do during her trip but I do have a few ideas...like the 63 building and Seoul Tower. I will finally have the opportunity to do some touristing around here. lol I just cant wait.

I am happy to report that Kason and I are both feeing tons better. I still have a slight cough but its better than what it was before and Kason is back to his regular cute monster ways. lol As seen in the picture to your left. He is my spaghetti face.


I am so excited that today is Friday...I finally have a weekend with the little man where neither of us are feeling miserable. But I do have a disaster of a house to clean...a house sure does get messy when you can hardley get off the couch. haha


Life is going alright. Well actually I recently lost my best friend of almost 8 years. But being a single mother myself I couldnt even stand to say her name any longer when I learned what she was going to be doing which I wont throw her business out there but it's pretty bad. Then the icing on the cake was she was talking about my parenting skills to other and how she doesnt like them and I am a horrible parent. I guess im still learning who my true friends are even tho Kason is now almost 1. No one can really understand the choices I make unless they are in my own 2 shoes...which is immposible. But I dont care what others think Kason knows I love him he is my entire world and I only do what is best for him. So if being the best mother I can means loseing your best friend...so be it. No one comes before Kason.

On to some more exciting news. Kasons Party stuff all made it here! Yay...im so excited. there are a few more items that I need to get and we are still waiting on the invites and the shirt and hat I ordered but other than that we have the essentials to make a party happen. But please keep those fingers crossed that his other stuff gets here soon. Oh and for any one interested the theme is Curious George I wanted them theme to be monkeys cause well he is my little monkey and I thought why not Curious George...honestly does anyone even do Curious George party's anymore?! It's all Winnie the Pooh, Princesses, Barbie, Spongebob, Toy Story all the common stuff so im glad to be doing something diffrent. Here is a picture of his awesome Curious George pinata of course he probably wont be doing any wacking but the other kids that will be attending will find it fun.

Well guys I think thats all my updates for now. I hope you all have a fantastic weekend cause I know we will. =]

Sick and Miserable

Ugh so for the last week Kason and I have just been absolutly miserable...well him not until recently. But last Tuesday I started to get this horrible soar throat, fever, and had a toliet seat implanted in my face since I couldnt keep ANYTHING down (including water). Went to the dr on wednesday and they said "oh its just a virus give it a few days to run its course" and they gave me an IV because I was so dehydrated. Well here we are Sunday night and I can eat but my throat feels so swollen that it hurts to...I have this awful cough that refuses to go away and I am having difficulty breathing. But I can almost gurantee if I go to the dr that they wont do anything which just sucks. Now on to Kason...well Friday he was feeling kind of warm, slight fever but went down with motrin. He also started to cough a lot nothing abnormal about it sounded like a regualr cough. Well today its a horse cough...sounds awful he is so congested that I am scared having him sleep and I check on him like every 2 hours like clock work...which results in me not getting good sleep. :/ This just sucks. So please I ask fellow blog followers send prayers our way for better health...it's so frusterating not having anyone close by to help.My house is a freaking mess and I have no energy to clean. Heck even just writing this is draining me. Oh and please say a prayer that we can both get dr apts in the morning since they are close to immposible here. Thanks so much.

Kiss my Diaper :)

Someone Slept really good last night!

Well I was tossing and turning all night Mr. Kason was sound asleep like this. Wish I could sleep like him sometimes.

I been a bad blogger

Well the last month or so I have seemed to fail at blogging. So much else has been going on that I just havent had the time. Kason has been struggeling with the ear infections yet again. Still trying to get tubes in his ears but here in Korea, that can be a huge pain. He also has a horrible skin rash all over him and IDK what that is from but he is going to be seeing a dermatoligist here in a week or so. I have done everything trying to get rid of it...including switching laundry detergent. Then to top it off he is teething BIG time, 7 teeth are fighting to make their way in his tiny little mouth I can see them poking thru. This includes his molars. My poor baby. But I guess its good that he gets it out of the way at once.

For a few months now I had been extremely worried about Kasons gross motar skills. It took him a while how to figure out sitting on his own and even know im still a nervous reck when he does cause he still falls back at times. It doesnt help my nerves either that we have concrete floors, which I dont understand who puts concrete floors in a apt in which children are more than likely going to live in. But anyways...he isnt standing up on his own, pulling up on his own or doing anything that most 11 month olds would be doing by now.  Mommy gut has told me something but everyone else has said he was just taking his time learning...which could very well be it, he could just be lazy but I still had him evaluated last week and was told that he was def behind in his gross motor skille learning and he is way below average. So he will be evaluated again within the next week or two by a physical therapist which could lead to him getting physical therapy once a week. Which im not upset about, it actually calms my mommy gut some.

Well there is not to much else going on in our lives. Kasons Auntski Chrissy will be here in a little less than a month with her friend Alex and I am super stoked to see her. I miss my sister. She will be here only 2 days before Kasons first birthday. :)

Well I gotta run, got a dr's apt to go to. But I promise I will get better at this blogging thing. I love to write and keep everyone informed of our life. :)

Happy Monday

This is how he greats me every morning now. I love it.

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